But the first time I watched a film or tv show and felt sexually attracted to the person on the screen, it was a woman — a scene in American Pie, I think! So I had two things to worry about! I spent nights lying awake, thinking things like this:. I felt lonely and bottled everything up. So the second, third and fourth times I told people, they were complete strangers. I knew I needed to talk to someone before my mental state hit a dangerous low and I was too scared of what my friends and family would think, so I found other ways to talk about it.
I'd met Jackie in elementary school. Over time, that friendship blossomed into a sexual relationship where I experienced new ways to do things. A great time with a couple of guys my wife and I met a week earlier. We went for a hike that turned into something neither of us would ever forget.